today i am quite low.. i kinda feel that i am just an total fukd up guy.. and i wonder.,. i wonder how things r goin.. where do i stand.. and most imporantly what do i do now.. i dont know.. i have this weird feeling in me saying again and again that i am a looser.. i try to turn that feeling down.. and step over it and say .. no this is momentary.. its all in the part of the game.. but after a while the same feeling of a looser strikes me like a jolt.. and i sulk. so much that i can feel the core of the earth like..( Grrrrrrr)..
sri has finalised on goin abroad.. nothing seems to stop her.. and the least i can do is.. supress my feelings for her.. and encourage her to do what the best she needs in her life.. rather thn just buggin her how much care and love for her.. and for tht she needs to stay with me.. felt like i am a stupid... and on top of tht had a fight at my home while just before leavin to office.. man.. what a way to start a monday morning.. and now i understand the real meanign of "Monday Blues".. and add to these... now having some error with my s/w here..
well.. i guess this is how the life works.. this is how things r suppose to work.. but the question is how am i suppose to deal with it.. do i just sitback and wait for things to roll out themselves.. or do i take some action on these.. i rather choose the first one.. coz the second one seems to give no output as desired...then i feel again.. am i not suppose to face these problems head on with it and solve these issues surrounding me.. its my life.. and i have the right to do.. but right now.. i am just trumbling down the rabbit hole.. no clue how deep is the rabbit hole..just sulking deeper and deeper in these thoughts...
"jab soch zyada ho jaatha hai.. tho faisla kamzor pad jaatha hai"
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