coming bac to life

i couldnt stop tripping on this song.. seems very apt at this moment of my life:

Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me

While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun
Lost in thought and lost in time

While the seeds of lifeand the seeds of change were planted
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the waiting had begun
And headed straight..into the shining sun

courtesy: pink floyd

Close Encounter of the Third Kind

Date: 12 june, 05
Place: Shanti Sagar, B'warnagar
Time: arnd 8'ish ( not sure tho..)

a small girl, aged arnd 8 approaches me near the parking lot, where I am pulling out the bike.. this sweet girl looks at me.. smiles. and...

she: saar, saar, plz buy this cloth sir ( she has this yellow cloth which is used for polishing and cleaning vehicles).

Me: I dont need it. Plz go away ( me.. not even looking at her, unlocking my bike)

She: plz saar, its just 15rs for a pair. plzzz saar. buy it off.

Me: I told you i dont need it. Now shoo away.

She: plz saar, if you buy it.. then only I will be able to buy food. I am very hungry saar. Plz saar. Momma hasnt given me money to have fud.. and I am starving from morning.

Me: Well.. how much is it u said. But then, I dont need it, i have quite a lot of those.

She: From morning I have been not able to have anything saar.. just 15rs saar.. thats it.. ( the look in her eyes.. the look of hope.. the hope of hoping me that i will buy that cloth for 15bucks and with that amount.. she can satisfy her stomach.. the look which really melted me... )

Me: ( I am just staring at her cute innocent face.. dont know whom to curse.. her parents... for no mistake of her's, she is selling a cloth at tht time.. on a sunday night.. wherein we will be in our own world boozing away to glory and loitering our had earned money for that momentary pleasure.. and here.. this small girl.. for no sin of her's is selling a cloth for 15rs at night, to curse her fate.. or her parents.. dont know waht to do) Hmmm ok.. give me those.

She: Thank you very much saar.. you are so good.. thanks again saar ( the smile.. i would say.. not even julia roberts million dollar smile could match her's at tht moment.. the smile.. man...that smile..)

Me: Just kept on looking at her.. she gave the cloth and just went away... as if.. she has won the world.. she is on top of it.. for what.. just one meal... just kept on looking at her till she vanished away from my sight... i am still trying to find that happy soul... trying to figure out which way did she took.. did she stop in middle to sell again.. no.. she didnt.. she's just walking happily... with that smile on her face.. i am jealous of that..coz i havent been to be smile to glory like her for ages now.

Me: just holding the cloth in my hands and looking up the skies. SIGH!!!

Everything's Not Lost

When I counted up my demons
Saw there was one for every day
With the good ones on my shoulders
I drove the other ones away

So if you ever feel neglected
And if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons,
yeahHoping everything's not lost

When you thought that it was over
You could feel it all around
And everybody's out to get you
Don't you let it drag you down'
Cos if you ever feel neglected

And if you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons,
yeahHoping everything's not lost
If you ever feel neglected
If you think that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons,
yeahHoping everything's not lost

Courtesy: ColdPlay