cast away

sometimes in life its best to be alone... coz the kind of pleasure you get in that pain of being alone is much and far better then being with someone of what you think and desire to be with and would be longing for it. and yet.. when reality sinks in.. its a bad mundane world.
at this moment of my life.. i have never felt so good of being alone. especially after S.. left, its
been good.. never thought it would be gud at those moments tho.. where someone special in ur life.. whom u think you cant be without.. cant think of leading a life without their presence in our lifes..just disappears for their own good.. and then we are left alone. well thts the beauty of life..

All good things in life must come to an end. And, sometimes.. when you are very thirsty for that someone special to come along in ur life.. and yet for those experiences and the pains which haunt.. will never allow us to go in deep.. deep in to those hearts.. there r FEW people.. who understand our pain along the way.. they would pour all their heart and love to
just get bac us to our normal self.. would consider us as their world..but we dont still want that.. we dont need that.. coz deep in the hearts.. its for sure tht history has its own way of repeating itself.. only the characters it potrays are different..

so why get into the battlefield.. just to overcome the previous failure.. why anthr battle.. why one more life to be scrwed and get screwed..ts better to be on the shores of an island.. take a deep breath.. enjoy those moments.. just sit bac and do things which are far more important and close to our heart than doin things which we think its close but in reality its way too far beyond our reach..enjoy life as it comes.. just a company of good friends.. that would do a miracle.

when u r all alone. nothin can beat that. and nothin will.

my new baby : Trinity

well.. it's 2 weeks for today of me getting behind the new wheels. I dont know, but its very hard for me to remember from when I was crazy abt cars. When I go deep down my memory lane, I can still remember those childhood days..where I used to pester my dad to buy tht toy car in those fancy stores when we used to come across during our walking sessions along with mom and sis.. and how much dad used to hate me for that..( and me intrun getting belted :(( ) Its pretty much fresh in my mind of this memory.. where I had once got this new tiny white car.. with some string behind it.. where u just pull it.. and vrooooommm it goes.. yup.. it came with a remote too.. but i screwed it up within a few days..and tht toy car lasted hardly for a week.. so then on dad stopped getting me any toys.

But the love for cars in me kept on growing.. always used to imagine how would I look if I was driving that model which just went past by me.. how it would be to drive that car along with my girl for a long drive during the college days( yup.. this imagination were from the movies and it was fullfilled at tht time my first baby: my bike)...and so on and on and on... the passion to own a car was more powerful than having my dream bike: enfield.

When I was a kid, dad had an super duper Ambassador.. and at those times. there were only three makes.. Ambassador, Fiat and then maruti 800.. and almost everyday I used to clean my car.. jump on the seats along with my doggie... and then dad had to sell due to the financial crunch.. and then few years bac.. after much pestering to him again.. he bought a second hand maruti 800.. i think that was those intial models of maruti. with a weird body.. but I was way too happy to have a car at that time.. and to my luck.. it stayed only for 3 days.. I heard dad saying that car was way too old and had lot of problems.. so he had to give it bac... and then we booked up an Fiat Uno.. which was a rage when it was launched.. and yet again .. i ran out of my luck.. due to some issues with Fiat guys..who gave some sob story abt the factory being locked for few months and we have to wait for atleast 6 months to get our hands on that car... so there we go again. dad pulled down the final curtain on that one. and that was the last by dad.

Me was planning to buy a car..initially a second hand.. where I can take my family out on a weekend.. but nothin did work out in the initial stages.. just kept on pushing it ..saying to myself.. not today.. will do in coming months.. so this few more months... took on almost 3 years.. but this time... the story was different.. I had to have a car.. mainly for my mom.. I didnt want to repeat the mistake when dad was around.. i didnt want to be too late.. even now .. its quite heavy on my wallet tho.. but atleast i am way too happy that I have my own car.. my own baby.. where I plant a kiss on the steering each night before i go to bed.. and every morning.. i run to take a glimpse of my baby the moment i get up.. that feeling itself is a complete satisfaction. which I had been waiting from such a long time.

Dont know why. But this name, I found it very powerful and very apt to my baby. And now I am gonna refer baby as " Trinity ".

imagine

this is one of my fav song by Lennon. How I wish this song would do a miracle which is deep down hidden in itself. Sigh!! How I wish the world where we live in today were like these lines...

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky

Imagine all the people
Living for today...
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions

I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one