control

'Control'
The dictionary defines it as: to exercise restraint or direction over; dominate; command, to control one's emotions.

But it so happening that, I am trying to control myself in order of not to approach a person
of my life, but it seems to be so tough and difficult to be in control at all given times, more so, when the person is right in front of your eyes. How can you just tend to ignore? How can we just pretend that we are whom we not suppose to be, and when we want to be ourselves, the mind puts across so many barriers and blocks such a way that it makes the other person standing opposite so distant and inaccessible, and it ensures that the ego rules at the end.

SIGH.

Sad Sad life what we choose to live.

This episode makes me to mention this line from the movie Schlinder's List, where Liam Neeson is having a converse with Ralph Fiennes, where both of them are having series of drinks at a party and the latter is completely stoned, and then and there he pops out this question to Liam
"How can you be in so control?", to this, Liam Neeson replies " My friend, whats power?. Power is something when you have all the rights to punish a victim despite u knowing that he is guilty, but yet, you pardon him, thats power. and thats my friend, is possible by being in control"

This line is so apt more than ever. When we know the other person is at fault, and yet we forgive them, is something where a normal human mind could possibly finds at ease to be done.

Yet, here I am, waiting.